plsss do not mind my language here.. it mite be quite harsh but this is how i feel n i'm not trying to pretend on how i feel.. this is very personal 2 me n i dun usually admit it n i rarely felt how i feel rite now... so plss.. i just need some space to express how i feel n dunt take this s some kind of seeking n attention...
have u ever feel that everything around u sucks? everything!! yes! everything!! u see.. i'm kinda having this pre-depression feelings.. so before i really end up depressed.. i better do something.. there will be days in ur life dat u feel down.. n i'm having those now.. everything just seems to be wrong.. it cudjjust b something in my mind but it cud also really be happening rite?
have u ever feel disconnected with ur frens? ur roomates? u used to have fun so much before but rite now u're missing all the fun? have u? again i said.. it cud be just something dat is playing in my mind.. they mite not feel d same but they cud feel d same about u.. rite? its not a pleasant feeling.. really.. it just sucks to see them having fun without u n to see how unfun they are when they r with u... i dunt know.. is there something going on heree???? i have been pretending to not feel d way i feel but this is how i end up myself.. feeling even more paranoid about myself..
u know how upset u r when ppl do not appreciate ur intention to do something good.. like when u're trying to make some time n put things back 2gether s usual.. maybe sometimes we do not realized we hurt others feelings but its ok.. we do dat sometime to ppl rite? n ppl do dat to us 2.. but wat if it keep on happening again n again n again? u'll end up like me.. yes u do.. so plss.. take precautions before hand..
ishh.. x ske laa.. betul2 x ske.. i think i mite exaggerating things here.. bnde ni mungkin x wujud pon.. so abaikan je la d content of d story.. just nak luahkan je.. i'm in an irritable mood rite now so sbb 2 kut sume bende nmpk x kene...
i'm not sure if i am an unfriendly person but dats wat i've been told.. not unfriendly la.. but distant.. not a very approacble ones.. i admit.. i do take time to get used to ppl.. hmm.. ape kene mengene bende ni ngn kat atas? ntah.. not related. just a statement to be made by me.. bcoz i've been hearing it a lot.. n i cant tell if it is upsetting me.. i dunt think it upsets me.. but it somehow affect how ppl judge me n dat upsets me a bit.. kalo dok pk sgt la.. kalo x.. x de pape pon.. tp ape yg kite nampak 2 slalu nye ape yg kite dapatla jugak lah kan... so maybe how i carry myself tu yg m'buatkan org pk mcm 2 kan.. so .. no worries.. or maybe i myself shud somehow be more open? haha.. wat d crap.. at this point of life.. i just want to escape from all this sucky things n forget wat have ever happen n start everything new fr d scratch... so bye2! i'm going to jusco rite after this n just spend on anything i like.. bye!
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7 comments:
sy ade perasaan begini kdg2.
and it sucks.
time kaseh.. glad to hear dat :)
biasa saje berperasaan begitu rupa...oh dan sy pastinye akan jd gile jika teman2 baik menjauh dan berpelikan dgn ku. ade 2 cara...1st pretending as if nothing happened n trus rasa sakit sndiri...2nd berbicara la mgkn outcomenye baik kalu kena caranya...
dan mengulas sedikit...kalu tdk mengenali anda d pbl dulu kala...sy jua takut mahu tegur anda...bmbg2 i dont fall in d same 'class' of u...tp ble suda kenal...kamu tdkla sbegitu rupa...jdk rakan2...yg sblm ni takut2 nk tego cik syai ni tego la..die bukan mkn org pun..mulut die pun kecik je...hehe
dun worry... SY SYG KAMU....ngeh3... wawawawawa~~~~duitku abis sudah....muahahaha
ala..relax la~aku pun slalu jer have that same feeling..but aku slalu akan control that feeling jgn bg its control u...
bg aku, in any situation pun we must control d situation...kdg2 tu aku akan wat mende2 lain yg merepek so that aku xterpiki sgt hal2 cmtu..
biase la cik syai oii~kdg2 tu kite dah buat yg terbaik 4 ourself n ppl around us, but it is not as they expected! we cant satisfy semua org...dan lg susah to make ppl understand us and appreciate wut w do..
maybe org disekeliling anggap ko cm unfriendly, but abaikan je la derang...u just deal with it and cont ur live...ppl mmg akn judge kite mcm2..but we know ourself well!!
byk pulak aku membebel ni! yang penting, jgn stress!huhu~
yup2 mmg tensi,sucks n sad when u do stuff n ppl mcm xappreciate.n betol la sgt sgt it sucks when u see ppl r fun but their soo un-fun when their with u.my advice abaikan jer.cam semorang ckp.we all hav that feelings..kwn2 kite bukan perfect.n so does ourself.
yes we stuff to mend it back,but sumtimes bila xdihargai kite marah..being a good fren ko kene wat jer yg terbaik pada pandanagn ko.a gud fren wud tegor if u do it wrongly..otherwise ji jusco jer byk kali ilangkan tensi..hak2
muahaha.. byk nye aku kne bebel kat cni.. ye betul! aku sudah ok skang! sudah cerie n masih cerie.. ngeh2.. thanks2.. btw mmg ilang la tensi pegi jusco 2.. abes duit aku g soping.. seb bek jpa dah masuk :P
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