cuaknye nak exam~

salam sume...
tgh rs cuak plak bile t'ingat yg ari ni da petang ari kamis.. n still byk lagi x bace...
kalo yg da bace pon mesti mcm kene bace balik.. so it still equals to xnah bace...
haish.. kenape la memory development kite ni x senang established? bace sekali terus register.. kan senang mcm 2.. tp ade hikmahnye Tuhan buat otak kite ni x sesenang mcm 2.. kat cni la kite dpt bezekan org yg kuat b'usaha n yg x..

skang ni aku da stat cuak coz triad x stat lagi bc.. stat study psychi dulu sbb da lame tggal tp x pass2 jgk bc psychi ni.. byk sgt nk kne bc smpai dah x lrt nk bc.. n alasan nk stat triad lmbt ni sbb mhrp still ingat2 la jgk ape yg blaja 4 d past 2 months ni.. malangnye.. td aku try2 la tgk past yr triad... saje nk test2 residual ilmu triad yg ada.. n keputusan yg aku dapat ialah... kosong.. same je mcm xtau pape.. since then i started to panic ckit.. tp dgn m'apply breathing technique and calming one self.. i managed to get myself back to senses.. tp still ade cuak2 2 lagi..

hmm... tapi aku teringat jugak la dulu2 time matrix.. aku rase style study aku lebe kurang same je mcm skang.. tp aku rase dulu aku blaja lg senang masuk n snag ingat.. skang ni aku rase mcm ape yg aku blaja ssah nk ingat.. nak faham 2 xde msalah.. nk ingat 2.. payah betul.... n dlu aku blaja sng sbb xde distraction sgt compared to skrang yg distraction ny t'lampau lah byk nye...

1st.. aku ade byk sgt movie n dvd collection kt bilik ni.. bile2 mase je aku busan mesti aku akan tgk.. n fyi.. aku telah berjaya m'abeskan tgk cite one tree hill season 4 dlm mase 3 ari ke 2 ari ek?.. tere x? ngeh2.. pape je la.. tp sebenya aku rs bile aku tgk movie ni aku mcm ade perasaan yg mcm semangat nk study.. kunun2 nye la.. so aku mggunakan alasan 2 s my defense mechanism utk m'elakkan rase guilty x blaja.. result is : less time to study n then mule la stat cuak.. aku adelah rase x salah pon nk tgk movie ke pe ke.. tp jgn over2 sgt kut.. shud not put watching movie 2 s ur 1st priority sepatutnye..

n then.. aku slalu rase aku bleh wat 2 keje pada waktu yg same.. cthnye.. smbil concentrate tgk movie or melalak2 nanyi bleh bace buku gak.. well.. bende 2 adalah mmg something yg aku selame ni mmg buat.. tapi lately aku rase.. its no longer effective.. aku realized yg aku da xbleh tgk movie smbil bace buku.. aku stat pening pale coz too much information is trying to be processed.. mmg dulu aku rs cm xde prob pun.. tapi aku rase my brain is already getting tired.. mostly due to aging process kut.. keh2.. so i already get a clear msg fr my brain dat no more simultaneous input at 1 time..

hmm.. pape pun.. aku stil ade mase lg nak blaja... so aku akan cube grab ape yg aku bley grab.. cume kdg2 aku ade rase pressure to get good result.. sbb ade mitos pasal aku (sila rujuk pade blog shah ye) yg menyebabkan aku kene dpt good result.. tp salah sebnye pemikiran aku 2.. biarlah ape yg aku buat ni adalah untuk kepuasan diri sndri.. it wud b better dat way kan..

kawan2... sempena nak exam ni maafkan salah silap aku eh..
doakan kite semua berjaya n lulus dgn cemerlang...
dah separuh tahun da kite kat 4th year..
tau2 je nnt da nak grad..
k.. bye2..

good luck semua!!!!

set reminder~

mcm biase pagi ni aku t'bgn bile dgr alarm henset aku.. cepat2 aku bgn g amik air semayang n solat subuh.. selalunye lepas subuh aku akan tido balik n bgn half n hour or an hour b4 kelas stat tuk b'siap2.. tp pagi ni aku x rase nk tdo blk.. eventho stil ade rase ngantuk2 gitu..

so.. nape aku xleh tido sebenanye? hmm... sbnye aku nk cube biase kan dri utk x tdo pas subuh unless desperately mengantuk.. lagipun bgn pagi2 ni byk hikmah nye kan? n slalu nye pagi2 ni la aku akan byk wat reflection.. time2 ni la teringat sume kate2 member yg stil syg n care pasal aku.. mcm2 kate nasihat drg bg.. syukur byk2 coz drg ni stil saba ngn aku.. maklumlah.. aku ni sgt degil org nye.. bak kate mereke2..

so pagi ni aku teringin nk ckp pasl azam aku.. sbb kebanyakan azam2 aku ni adalah azam2 yg same dr dulu sampai sekarang n kebanyakannye xnah tercapai pon.. so let this post be a reminder to myself.. sbb aku ni adalah org yg kene selalu di remindkan.. selalu lupe tujuan n matlamat yg perlu di capai..

1. dr dulu sampai sekarang... selalu berazam nak study bersungguh2.. aku rase ni adalah azam semue org jugak kan... maksud aku by 'study bersungguh' ni is btul2 use d opportunity to the upmost to learn watever u can get.. mksudnye kalo pegi klinik 2 grab everything u can get.. if ade tutorial.. tanye segala2 bnde yg nk tanye kat supervisor.. bla3... byk lagi lah carenye.. in conclusion m'amalkan pro-active learning la.. bukan passive learning.. selalunye org yg passive ni banyak ketinggalan dr segi ilmu nye... for my current status.. i am still a passive learner.. n ssh jgk la nk change habit yg dah biase jd passive ni.. tp xpe.. bit by bit kite cube... x rugi pon.. kan?

2. dr dulu sampai sekarang nak m'amalkan gaya idup sihat... aaa.... n gaya idup sihat ni merangkumi semue bende la.. dr segi makanan n lifestyle la yg paling pentingnye... ntah da berape org la agaknye yg aku ckp aku nak g at least jog la 3-4 kali seminggu.. n aku ni selalunye yoyo je.. mebe dlm 1 minggu 2 mmg t'capai la ape aku nk wat 2.. tp sebulan lepas 2 mesti aku senyap je.. haha.. standard la 2... yg penting sebenanye kene consistent n being consistent ni is something yg i'm not good at.. so kene CONSISTENT!! HAIT!!

3. hmm... pe lagi ek.. sebenanye byk lagi la yg aku teringin nak wat tp da x larat tulis da... haha.. but the key point here is to do d things dat i said i wanna do.. because words are nothing without actions.. betul x? so setakat ni.. aku nak concentrate kt 2 bnde kat ats je dulu.. wat ckit2 la.. wat sekali byk2 x larat plak kang.. hee..

hm.. tibe2 rase mcm penah tulis la post mcm ni dulu2.. ngeh2.. xpe2.. kan kite ni perlu sentiase meremindkan dri kite.. hee.. k la.. bye2

dina's wedding...

mukadimah.....

tengah nak stat wat cwu oftal yg sepatutnye kne present esok.. tgerak la hati nk bace blog si shah ni.. coz mmg die la yg pling rajin update blog.. bile stat bace rase cm rindu lak nk tulis blog.. ngeh2.. tp 2 la.. i dunt have much to tell or mebe i'm not gud at telling.. tp i do think i want to update my blog.. yela.. dulu bukan men da janji rajin update.. ngeh2..

Dina's akad nikah

mase mule2 dpt tau dina nak kawin sabtu baru ni.. i was shocked.. lbt gile nk digest information 2.. though mmg da xpect that she's getting married soon.. but i didnt expect it to be this soon.. mase dapat tau 2 it's already 1 week to her wedding day.. n i've decided to come to witness her wedding.. the fact that she's d first 1 in our batch to get married plus she's my ex-kuliah mate in KMNS same2 ngan payan itu.. it really strengthen d reason y i shud attend d ceremony.. lgpun.. bende yang bek mcm ni kalo b'peluang untuk pegi.. ape salah nye pegi kan?

well.. to witness a very sacred ceremony.. it really made me think a lot.. i try to put myself in dina's shoes.. what if i'am dina 2day? what if i'm getting married today? hmm.. n guess what d answer i get? i'm totally not ready for all of this.. n d fact dat dina is.. i feel very2 proud of her.. and i do admire her courage.. at this very moment.. she has already find d life she wants to be in.. n she has already settle down for it.. which something dat i still cannot do for the time being..

n to see her parents's tears at the moment their daughter is becoming someone's wife.. i felt a bulk of tears started to fill up d corner of my eyes.. tbayang mak abah kat umah.. someday.. eventually they also will have to go through this... hmm..

n then.. when i see d ppl around me.. i wonder.. will there be ppl coming when my time has come? to see many of dina's friend come n help during d ceremony.. i also wonder.. will my friends come n do d same thing for me? all in all.. it just hit me dat i need to appreciate whoever i knew all this while.. sumtimes i tend to take for granted of ppl around me.. n sumtimes i dunt even bother to get to know ppl around me.. in which i dunt feel gud about it..

ape2 pon.. d whole journey to batu pahat is worth all the time n money.. becoz it has bring a lot of meaning to me...

anyway.. let's pray for dina's happiness.. semoge mereke berdue bahagie di dunia dan akhirat kelak.. amiinnn...



p/s : actually xde sgt la gbr wedding dina.. x bwk camera pon time 2.. ngeh2..